Wednesday, May 18, 2011

I just finished calculating the current balances of my loans and credit cards. Let's just say I would be ecstatic and probably could afford a few cosmetic surgeries if I have that amount in my savings account. Never in my life I imagined that I would have that much debt. Of course, my car payment isn't due within the next seven months of this year, but it's a bit overwhelming to know that I am in debt.

I was thinking of going back to school by fall, but it seems unlikely now. At least until I can finish my credit card payments. That also means, no shopping at all. BTW, just off topic, I came up with a statement. "Don't buy clothes. Just lose weight." It's because I have so much clothes... I just can't fit in them. Haha. Anyway... going back to school. I still have about 8 grand in my past loan. I'm not sure if I can afford to add to that. There will always be scholarships available, I'm just not sure which ones I can actually get. I decided to enroll (if I do enroll) in a community college for now. I will be self supporting and I can't afford the university, yet. I might also have to study part-time in order to pay off some of what I owe.

Dahlia (my car) also needs/requires money. Gas, though it went down a bit, isn't cheap. The monthly payments and insurance also add up. I'm not complaining about it. I'm just stating the obvious. I love Dahlia and really grateful to Him for this gift. I just have to be more strategic with my budget.

I'm praying for guidance. I'm in a state of slight confusion and I really don't know what to do.

Philippians 4:19 (NIV) "And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus."