hello again, blogworld!

Half a year passed since my last post. A lot of things had happened and that's the real reason I don't blog. Things are happening at the moment and there was no time to go here and write about it. Maybe my real dilemma is figuring out what events are interesting enough to keep you reading. Yes, you, my dear reader who I truly admire because of your patience.

Like I've said, a lot of things happened while I was away from blogging. Maybe I should just do a "top ten" list (in no particular order):

1) I made a year at my job. It's not my dream job, but it does pay the bills. Even if there are stress factors that make me want to pull my hair, I still find the self-fulfillment of sucking up a lot of bull and do a good job. :]

2) Watches "Glee", "How I Met Your Mother", "The Big Bang Theory", and a few more shows. It's so nice to have an inexpensive, "me" time. :]

3) I paid off my PayPal credit card. My budget is balanced. Whew!

4) Something bad happened to our church, but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. People stepped up to the plate. I felt closer to the other members. Our pianist and guitarist now sings, too! Hooray!

5) I learned how to make molten lava cake. Yeah. Haha.

6) The love for anime was revived. I'm not sure if that's a good thing, but it's another way of bonding with him.

7) I kept in touch with friends from here and the PI. Even if we're miles apart, I'm still sort of up to date with what's happening down there. Thank you, Facebook! And my college friends here, we somehow find time for each other. I believe this is a really important thing.

8) Met new people and thankful how they affected my life positively.

9) Fell in love with my family more.

10) I'm now in a relationship and I'm truly joyful. We may not always be happy, but we learned how to appreciate the little things that we do for each other and learn how to forgive. And to keep our mouth shut when needed to avoid arguments that don't make sense.

These are my ultimate highs. Yes, some of them may be too simple. But when you learn to appreciate the little things in life, that's what makes life more wonderful. :]

rockband friday and lumpia night

i've been eating my mum's bean sprout lumpia the whole day. AND I'M REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY ABOUT IT :]

we had a farewell lunch for one of our coworkers today and i brought 30 pieces of the filipino lumpia complete with spicy garlic vinegar. of course, i had to take the bus this morning and the suka is in a ziploc container. it started leaking through my paper bag while i was still in waipahu! dang... thankfully, i got to work without any of it on my clothes. whew! coworkers really liked it and 30 pieces wasn't enough. haha. oh wells.



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~~bye, vio! :]~~



vee and tiny showed up tonight. tiny brought her rockband and we played for 3 hours. of course, we had to eat and i fried more lumpia :]



tiny's head got stuck between the ball and the futon :D

i usually have a lot that i want to write about, but i always don't. during the day, something interesting would happen or i would just have an idea to write about but i would just forget about everything due to lots of distractions like facebook, texting, blah blah blahs. there was a point when i thought of totally leaving the blog world since i'm not so sure if i really want other to people to know what i've been up to or listen to my rants. anyways, i guess i'm still here.




i'm still as emotional as always. (i don't really want to use the word "emo" because people would automatically think of bangs, eyeliners, black shirts, and skinny pants.)

i feel overworked in my job because we're short on people. there was a potential newbie that came in yesterday and a few days before that, but i'm not sure if she'll take the job. if she does, i can hand her over the contracts so i can concentrate on the special accounts that i handle. i still have yet to submit my personal evaluation so i can ask for a raise. praying silently and crossing my fingers for that.

also been thinking really hard about going back to school. it seems like that i'm going to stay here in hawaii instead of moving to san fran and i would be really really really really really really really really really really really really happy if that happens. :] i started sketching again. went back to basics. like triangles-and-ovals-basic kind of sketching. really need to improve my illustration to better express my visions. i know i'm a good designer, but i've noticed i lost my passion. i've been so drowned out by a lot of distractions. i'm not happy about it, but i'm now getting back there. been browsing online a lot too for some studies on how to start an online clothing business.

love life... hmmm.. it's better than before. a working progress, i might say. not completely there, but leaning towards it. again, praying and crossing my fingers for it.






on a lighter note, MANNY PACQUIAO WON!! the filpino pride made history by being the first boxer to win 7 weight titles, one more than the golden boy, oscar dela hoya. chee hoo!

flowers

a few months back, i believe it was mother's day season, my coworker asked me if i've received flowers before. i said, "yeah, but not really." yes, i received some flowers four times in my life but i don't think they really count. why? because it's not the boy-gives-girl-flowers-cuz-he-likes-her deal.

Here.


Number 1
It was my high school graduation. I had a boyfriend back then, but it wasn't an official one. Meaning, it would cause panic/anger/and prolly some form of violence. Anyways, my dad gave me a bunch of flowers when I finally got my diploma. Sweet! Don't get me wrong. I got really excited, but it's a happy/proud dad kind of flowers.


Number 2
I was dating this guy back then. He told me that he wanted to give me a single white rose for my birthday because he said it's pure. Eh? My birthday that year fell on a Sunday and he had no choice but to give it to me at church. He doesn't really know what to do, so he put the rose in his pocket to hide it from other people. When he saw me, he took it out and handed me... the stem. Yep, the rose head was gone. He doesn't know what happened and just threw away whatever is left. Smart, eh?


Number 3
This one definitely doesn't count. The third sich was my 18th birthday. So all the flowers they gave me, I (well, mum) bought them. Blah.


Number 4
This is another story of a single white rose. Imagine; lights dimmed and there were only blue candles in the room. Then, somebody gave me a single, white rose. Then, he also gave the person next in line a rose. It was my Phi Theta Kappa Induction ceremony. All the inductees were given a single, white rose. Yep. Just another school ritual.



yep, true stories.

to the rescue!

yesterday, while i was at work, i got a call from tiny. i haven't seen her since january because she signed up for the army national guard and went to boot camp for six months. she got back last thursday from virginia. so, yesterday, she called me up and told me that she was at the airport reporting a loss. turned out she ran out of money to pay for parking. i work near the airport, prolly a 20-minute walk, so i'm the first one she thought of to rescue her.

it was about 11am, the sun was high up in the sky, and i wasn't gonna walk and get sweaty. but i did say i'm going to meet up with her. i walked up to the bus stop and waited for my limo. got off at the stop and spent another 10 minutes trying to find tiny. we finally found each other! yey!

since i was already on my lunch break, i decided to treat tiny for lunch. then we thought of picking up vee cuz she works about three blocks away from me. the three of us went to get vietnamese food and i ended up smelling like onions and garlic.

that was my friday!

here are random pics:



aly and ayden @ mel's grad party








aly and mika doing cartwheels @ magic island

i haven't written an entry in a long time because i don't feel like anything in my life right now is worth writing. or i'm just lazy. anyway.

this month, maj is leaving for alaska. it's very hard to schedule a going-away dinner for her due to her hectic schedule. i haven't seen her since april and i miss her so much! now she's leaving hawaii. :( anyhoo, i think everyone is fine with dinner this saturday. just a few close friends in a cheap restaurant and no alcohol. it'll be fun.

depression (or something like it) had been frequent. maybe i'm experiencing my almost-quarter-life crisis. i've been moody and annoyed lately. today, i scolded one of our salesreps and i think i was too bitchy to my coworkers by the end of the day. gaaaahh. i feel lonely even if i'm surrounded by a lot of people. what's wrong with me?

bus rides and almost fevers

Part 1. Bus Rides

About a few days ago, I believe it was a Thursday, I had a weird feeling about catching the bus after work. I couldn't explain it, but it kept on bothering me. I had asked a friend if i could hitch, but he couldn't pick me up from work because he needs to drive his mum somewhere.

The number 42 bus came first so I got on that one. It was pretty crowded but I found a seat near the front. The first thing I noticed was there were two, big, scary-looking guys who look different. Different, meaning, not normal. No one knows what people who think different will do, but I just kept my cool. The traffic was pretty heavy that day and I'm very exhausted, so I just wanted peace and quiet until I get home.

The first ten minutes were ok, until this little FOB 10-ish year old Filipino boy started singing... Beyonce's "Irreplaceable"... Loud. Real LOUD. He didn't sing the whole song but when his player got to the chorus parts, he would just blurt out. After a few minutes, an older girl he was with started rapping in Tagalog and he sang along with her. The two FOB couple behind me who was with those kids started talking loud. The two fob couple behind the kids, who i believe is their aunt and prolly an older cousin, were just sitting there. The kids kept on what they're doing for 20 minutes. I kept giving them the look but I guess they're not smart enough to get that. I wanted to say something like, "Are you stupid that you can't understand the bus signs and announcements that you have to be quiet?" I decided against it and just looked at them and said, "You're too loud," in a very annoyed voice. They finally shut up. After I did that, I realized that I did it wrong. I should've scolded the adults instead of the kid. Anyway, when the couple behind me stood up to get off the bus, I said, loudly, "Finally!" But yeah, I still think they didn't get it.

After that incident, I noticed one of the scary-looking guys was staring at me. Creepy. He got off one stop before mine. Whew!

I caught my second bus which will take me to Kunia/Village Park. I sat in the back, just minding my own business. Then this rotund, white guy asked me if I was ok because he said he thought I was crying. I told him I'm fine. So he started talking story, asked me if I live around Village Park. And all of a sudden he told me he thinks I'm beautiful. I was surprised and weirded out so I just thanked him. After a few seconds of silence, he asked me if I lived alone or with my parents. So I replied, "No. I live with my boyfriend and my kid." He finally shut up.

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Part 2: Almost-fevers

Since Monday last week, I haven't been feeling well. Sometimes, I feel like throwing up or I take a dump every hour. This feeling in my hands which I usually get before having a fever is always there, but it never really went there. It's annoying since I don't have any reason to stay home and rest because it's not really there. And also, the new employees just started later last week and this Monday.

I slept when I got home today. I was just having a terrible headache. Now, I feel like I want to throw up, but I'm hungry at the same time. Blah